Some have asked me why I do what I do…
I mean you don’t always find a worship leader and writer of praise and worship songs also going out and doing gigs and concerts in secular venues like music festivals, coffee shops and even wine bars. It doesn’t exactly conform to most people’s picture of a ‘believer’, let alone a worship leader.
The more ‘mature’ I get the more I realize it is more important to be who God has called me to be and less important to fit into a box. I have also learned that I can’t be anyone else – if God is going to be glorified in me, then I have to walk out the destiny He has assigned specifically for me.
I used to wish I could write and sing with the depth of Misty Edwards, the anointing of Kim Walker, or the heart of Rita Springer. While I have certainly been blessed by these women who have greatly influenced my love for worship and songwriting, it is really a waste of time to wish to be someone other than who I am called to be. (Can anyone say ‘amen?” 🙂
I also recently realized that it is pointless to wish I could have started writing songs and performing in public 20 years ago…I mean, obviously, the timing wasn’t for then. I also had the most important job of my life which continues to be my priority – being a mom and seeing my children grow up to fulfill their destiny. But God knows the deep desires of our hearts that we are even afraid to dream because we think we don’t qualify. Some of you may have given up on dreams God gave you many years ago. I never in a million years would have imagined that I would be doing what I am doing now in my “middle age’ years 🙂 Yet, I feel younger and more fulfillment of God’s purpose than I ever have.
So, don’t use your age as an excuse to go after the destiny our awesome God has created specifically for YOU! At the end of the day, we can’t use the excuse ‘ I would have done it when I was young but I’m too old now”… You have a destiny and God wants to sing His song through you whether you are a doctor, lawyer, artist, musician, truck driver, mom or dad.
I sing and write songs because He expresses Himself that way through me…because it brings healing and life to my soul and draws me closer to Him…and makes me a better wife, mom and friend because I am living in His will He designed for me…He orders my steps.